Darker me

Last night, I found myself sleeping in a bed other than my own.  This can sometimes result in some strange dreams, and this was one such occasion.  What I've written below is what I remember.

The first part of this very odd dream I remember is me in my sister's old bedroom in the house I grew up in as a kid.  This house has featured in quite a few dreams recorded here.  Anyway, I'm sitting on the floor in front of a laptop, facing the window at the far end of the room.  I'm supposed to be working on the computer, but can't really concentrate, finding myself distracted by the window.  The window itself is pitch black.  It isn't nighttime, it's just that the window itself looks out into a mysterious, perfect blackness.

I eventually leave what I'm doing and walk over to the window.  Through it, I barely manage to make out the faint figure of something in the distance, looking a bit like a skeleton lying on the ground but floating in mid-air.  I then feel compelled to open the window and step out into this blackness, and when I do, I am consumed by it and feel what seem to be disembodied hands trying to grab at me, but I am able to repel them all.  Even so, I feel them changing me somehow.

I'm then in a hospital looking for a client I've dealt with at work but didn't get on with (long story).  I've been sent to assassinate him, which I eventually do after hunting him down.  I'm then transported to a school to look for another similar antagonist whom I also subdue.  With these encounters, I feel there is something in me that wasn't there before; a force playing on darker impulses, urging me to destroy without mercy.  I am both repulsed and empowered by it and know it started from when I jumped out of that window.

I then find myself in a forest and I'm approached by two potty-mouthed old ladies whom, amidst a flurry of expletives, tell me I have to find the "black palace" that is in the forest.  As I walk with them, a large, pink church-like set of double doors appears in front of me.  They tell me the black palace is behind those doors, so I open them and climb an invisible staircase, only to find the palace has been destroyed.  After that, I climb another invisible staircase and confront someone who tries to attack me with psychic tendrils that I am able to repel using the same dark powers from before.

There are other bits to this dream, but I don't remember them well.  At some point, I knocked on some old man's door and he helped me, but I can't remember how.   There was also another bit that took place in an area like the previous entry, but I don't remember that either.

Above all, this dream left me with a very strange feeling; in it, I was driven by a dark, destructive force that I didn't understand, but it had helped me progress, even if I felt bad about using it.  It seemed to awaken a dark side within me.  If you've ever Xenogears, it was akin to Id from that game.  Interestingly, I told my fiancee about this dream the following morning, and she said "It sounds like one of those games you play".  Perhaps she was onto something.