A rather sad dream, this one. As I recall, it was quite long and protracted, but the general gist was that I had gone to a house where two young boys lived. One was 5 and the other 2 or 3. Their parents had gone out a few days earlier and not returned.
The boys were missing their parents, but sure they would return, they were also becoming hungry as they were running out of food. Somehow, in that manner in which you do in dreams, I just "knew" those boys' parents had died and would not be coming back, which made me feel intensely sad for the now orphaned children. In this dream, I also happened to be involved with some sort of charitable organisation that helped children like this, so when I went back to the office, I told someone about the boys and he drove over to pick them up, with the intention of finding them a new home.
I woke from this dream still feeling very sad for the fates of those poor children.
As for what it could mean, I suspect it has something to do with my ex. A week or so ago, she got in touch asking if we could patch things up. If you've been following this, you'll know that we split up around September/October last year (her doing). I responded to her text by saying that I no longer know how I feel about her (which is the truth), and that I would get back to her once I've thought it through. To date, I have not contacted her and don't know when I will. I could be wrong, but something tells me the boys in this dream symbolise her waiting for me to respond to her, and that the dead parents represent my feelings towards her. I also suspect the sadness I felt about this dream alludes to my guilt in not contacting her and, of course the remnant sadness of how things ended between us.
I'm also with somebody else now, so the chances of us getting back together are negligible at best.
Saturday, 17 January 2015
Wednesday, 14 January 2015
Old crushes, radio heads and out of body dreams
So this is my first post of 2015, and it is actually a combination of about 3 different dreams.
The first was an out of body dream I had last week sleeping on the train on the way to work. I saw myself "float" away from my body (which was slouched in the seat) and slowly float down the central aisle of the carriage. I then floated out of the top and saw myself looking down on the moving train. After doing this, I floated to the side, looking through the windows. I then floated to the front of the train and watched as it headed straight for me. As it did, I floated straight through the front window. I appeared to have some sort of x-ray vision at this point as all I saw were people's skeletons. I then floated to the side before eventually waking up.
In the second dream, I heard what sounded like a radio station over the background of a dream I was having (which I barely remember). It stood out because the broadcast was completely unconnected to the dream and I even remember thinking "where is this coming from?". The broadcast was that of a girl talking about having some sort of anxiety disorder to the man interviewing her. She sounded very panicky and flustered.
The final dream occurred last night. In it, I was with a group of friends in the pub. One of the guys said a girl he knew was going to be joining us soon, and it turns out it was a girl I fancied in school when I was about 15. I can barely recall what this girl looked like other than that she was slim, Chinese and not interested in me in the slightest. I also had not even thought about this girl in years, that is, until I had this dream last night.
Anyway, upon learning that an old high school crush (now fully grown, of course) also happened to know good friends of mine and would be joining us, I became embarrassed and made a sharp exit. I decided instead to go shopping and was wandering through a shopping centre and from the distance I saw her: the same girl! She was on her way to meet my friends and decided to pick up a few things first, it would seem. I did my best to avoid her, but just as I was going to leave, we bumped into each other. Back in school, this girl had little to say to me, but in this dream we spoke like old friends and she asked me on a date. I told her I would think about it and made an exit.
The dream then cut to later on where she'd met up with my friends and found out they also knew me too. Additionally, one of my friends made a point of telling her how much I fancied her to such an extent that it put her off wanting to meet me.
The interesting thing about this dream is that it is a little similar to an incident that occurred a week earlier, just after Christmas. I was making my way home after a sleepless night and had just endured a 2hr bus journey. All I wanted was to go home and hopefully get some sleep. On the way back, I decided to pop into a shop to grab a few things I needed but then saw a friend (more of an acquaintance really) who I didn't really want to talk to at that time. Don't get me wrong, he's a nice guy, but being autistic, has a tendency to not understand social queues and ALWAYS stops to talk, even if it's clearly not a good time for you. Under normal circumstances, I would've happily chatted with him (we have a great love of music in common), but having had no sleep, I was not in the mood to talk to anybody. So, I quickly swept through the store and just before I got to the counter, there he was, and of course, he stopped to talk! The way I tried to avoid the girl in this dream was almost like this (only for different reasons, obviously). Beyond that, I can't think of anything that happened the day before this dream that relates to why I had it. Not at the moment, anyway.
It is also worth noting that throughout the dream, I never got a clear look at her face, it always looked blurred, so my recollection of her remains fuzzy and indistinct.
The first was an out of body dream I had last week sleeping on the train on the way to work. I saw myself "float" away from my body (which was slouched in the seat) and slowly float down the central aisle of the carriage. I then floated out of the top and saw myself looking down on the moving train. After doing this, I floated to the side, looking through the windows. I then floated to the front of the train and watched as it headed straight for me. As it did, I floated straight through the front window. I appeared to have some sort of x-ray vision at this point as all I saw were people's skeletons. I then floated to the side before eventually waking up.
In the second dream, I heard what sounded like a radio station over the background of a dream I was having (which I barely remember). It stood out because the broadcast was completely unconnected to the dream and I even remember thinking "where is this coming from?". The broadcast was that of a girl talking about having some sort of anxiety disorder to the man interviewing her. She sounded very panicky and flustered.
The final dream occurred last night. In it, I was with a group of friends in the pub. One of the guys said a girl he knew was going to be joining us soon, and it turns out it was a girl I fancied in school when I was about 15. I can barely recall what this girl looked like other than that she was slim, Chinese and not interested in me in the slightest. I also had not even thought about this girl in years, that is, until I had this dream last night.
Anyway, upon learning that an old high school crush (now fully grown, of course) also happened to know good friends of mine and would be joining us, I became embarrassed and made a sharp exit. I decided instead to go shopping and was wandering through a shopping centre and from the distance I saw her: the same girl! She was on her way to meet my friends and decided to pick up a few things first, it would seem. I did my best to avoid her, but just as I was going to leave, we bumped into each other. Back in school, this girl had little to say to me, but in this dream we spoke like old friends and she asked me on a date. I told her I would think about it and made an exit.
The dream then cut to later on where she'd met up with my friends and found out they also knew me too. Additionally, one of my friends made a point of telling her how much I fancied her to such an extent that it put her off wanting to meet me.
The interesting thing about this dream is that it is a little similar to an incident that occurred a week earlier, just after Christmas. I was making my way home after a sleepless night and had just endured a 2hr bus journey. All I wanted was to go home and hopefully get some sleep. On the way back, I decided to pop into a shop to grab a few things I needed but then saw a friend (more of an acquaintance really) who I didn't really want to talk to at that time. Don't get me wrong, he's a nice guy, but being autistic, has a tendency to not understand social queues and ALWAYS stops to talk, even if it's clearly not a good time for you. Under normal circumstances, I would've happily chatted with him (we have a great love of music in common), but having had no sleep, I was not in the mood to talk to anybody. So, I quickly swept through the store and just before I got to the counter, there he was, and of course, he stopped to talk! The way I tried to avoid the girl in this dream was almost like this (only for different reasons, obviously). Beyond that, I can't think of anything that happened the day before this dream that relates to why I had it. Not at the moment, anyway.
It is also worth noting that throughout the dream, I never got a clear look at her face, it always looked blurred, so my recollection of her remains fuzzy and indistinct.
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