Torture orgy

This dream jumped around a bit, but the gist of it is as follows.


I was in a strange building at night time.  Behind a glass panel I saw lots of people, men and women who appeared to get a kick out of pain and torture.  Some of these people had blades attached to their bodies by chains and would shake their bodies around to spin the blades so they would cut each other and themselves.


The location then changed and I was standing outside this complex with a woman who was looking for her daughter called Whitney.  Whitney had been taken from her in a legal battle with her ex, the girl's father.  This did not appear to be connected to the torture that was happening before, but it was outside the same building.


The next thing I know, I'm in the building again and behind the glass panel, I see 6 men stood around a large table. Someone then drags a young black woman onto the table and take off her dress.  She is squirming and desperately struggling to break free, but cannot.  One of the men produces a large knife and stabs it into her open mouth, which produces a piecing scream and blood.  He then slices her open, cutting all the way from her jaw, down her torso and lower body to the tip of her vagina.  The whole time, she is screaming and writhing in pain.  The men then try to pull her skeleton from her body whilst she is still alive and manage to do so.  She dies in the process.


The girl's screams were so distressing, they woke me up.


This is probably one of the most disturbing dreams I've ever had.  And no, I haven't been watching any horror films.  Given the unusual and unsettling nature of this dream, I went here for help trying to figure out, and was shocked that it really described what I have been going through.


As the dream dictionary suggests, the torture was used as a symbolic device to represent certain emotions; in my case extreme stress and a dread of what is around the corner.  This is due to some family issues which again, I won't go into on here.  Either way, the day before, I was doing some very hard thinking and arrived at some conclusions which unsettled me, and I think this dream was just my subconscious mind's way of showing me just how difficult I'm finding things with my family at the moment.

Recurring dreams: At my mother's house

I haven't posted here in a very long time.  The reason being that my my dreams have been very fragmented, abstract and not terribly noteworthy for months.  I'd wake up and only remember tiny snippets.  

However, in between these mostly nonsensical dreams, I'd get ones that stood out.  I've decided to compile them all here as they seem to revolve around a similar theme; that is, in these dreams I'm living at my mother's house again.

Dream #1

In the first of these dreams, I'm a prisoner who is out on bail and staying at my mum's. My sister is there, too.  Both are very cold towards me.  At one point, I decide to go outside the front door.  It is a nice sunny day outside.  As I am out on bail, they're supposed to be keeping an eye on me to make sure I don't wander off too far, so as soon I step outside, they get suspicious.

I am stood at the end of the path that leads to the house and as one of them approaches, I decide to make a run for it, so I turn left down the road and keep on running.  My sister follows me, but isn't able to catch me.

Dream #2

In the second dream, I'm living in my mum's house with my girlfriend.  The interior of the house in this dream looks nothing like it does in real life.  I'm lounging on the sofa and find some photographs of my girlfriend having three-way sex with two other men.  At this point, she approaches me to take away the pictures, but it's too late, I've already seen them, and I tell her.  She tries to make an excuse, but I tell her she's "just like all the others" and push her away.

I run outside the house with the intent of running away from my girlfriend.  She follows me, brandishing a gun which she uses to try and shoot me.  However, I get on a bike and pedal away, this time going right.  As I'm riding, I keep looking back, half hoping that she's following me, but she doesn't.  It also gets dark and very soon, it's nighttime.  I eventually meet a group of lads who surround me and we end up jumping into a large van together.

Dream #3

In this dream, I'm living in the house with my girlfriend again, and she tells me she's had an abortion.  I'm very upset that she didn't consult me, but later found out she made it up as a ruse to get my attention.  I then get angry at her for playing such a sick joke and kick her out of the house along with her belongings.  Later, I'm in what would normally be my mother's room and hear someone crying outside.  I think it's my girlfriend, but I look out the window and realise it is actually my sister, and that my girlfriend is no longer there.

In the last entry, I mentioned problems I was having in my relationship with my girlfriend.  Fortunately, we got through these and are still together.  Those last two dreams are puzzling for that reason; there's nothing wrong with our relationship at the moment, but I suspect I know why I had them.  I'm experiencing some family issues at the moment with my mum and sister (long story - not for the internet), and it's made me really appreciate my relationship with my girlfriend, whom I value more than ever because she's keeping me sane right now.  I haven't told her this yet, so maybe I should.  Since my last entry, a lot has changed, and she has gone back to her old self and isn't so religious anymore, which was the very thing that almost drove me away.

The first dream I believe relates to the ongoing issues with my family concerning religion.  As I mentioned in another entry, I was raised a Christian, but de-converted some time ago.  I never told either my mother nor my sister, but one of my friends who also knows my sister outed me a few months ago by accident.  Ever since then, I've been worried about my mother finding out as she is very devout and this would cause huge problems.  Me being a prisoner on bail in that dream symbolised how I'd be treated by them (especially my mum).  My sister chasing me down the road, I think represents her attempts to try and re-convert me, which have not and will not be successful.