However, in between these mostly nonsensical dreams, I'd get ones that stood out. I've decided to compile them all here as they seem to revolve around a similar theme; that is, in these dreams I'm living at my mother's house again.
Dream #1
In the first of these dreams, I'm a prisoner who is out on bail and staying at my mum's. My sister is there, too. Both are very cold towards me. At one point, I decide to go outside the front door. It is a nice sunny day outside. As I am out on bail, they're supposed to be keeping an eye on me to make sure I don't wander off too far, so as soon I step outside, they get suspicious.
I am stood at the end of the path that leads to the house and as one of them approaches, I decide to make a run for it, so I turn left down the road and keep on running. My sister follows me, but isn't able to catch me.
Dream #2
In the second dream, I'm living in my mum's house with my girlfriend. The interior of the house in this dream looks nothing like it does in real life. I'm lounging on the sofa and find some photographs of my girlfriend having three-way sex with two other men. At this point, she approaches me to take away the pictures, but it's too late, I've already seen them, and I tell her. She tries to make an excuse, but I tell her she's "just like all the others" and push her away.
I run outside the house with the intent of running away from my girlfriend. She follows me, brandishing a gun which she uses to try and shoot me. However, I get on a bike and pedal away, this time going right. As I'm riding, I keep looking back, half hoping that she's following me, but she doesn't. It also gets dark and very soon, it's nighttime. I eventually meet a group of lads who surround me and we end up jumping into a large van together.
Dream #3
In this dream, I'm living in the house with my girlfriend again, and she tells me she's had an abortion. I'm very upset that she didn't consult me, but later found out she made it up as a ruse to get my attention. I then get angry at her for playing such a sick joke and kick her out of the house along with her belongings. Later, I'm in what would normally be my mother's room and hear someone crying outside. I think it's my girlfriend, but I look out the window and realise it is actually my sister, and that my girlfriend is no longer there.
In the last entry, I mentioned problems I was having in my relationship with my girlfriend. Fortunately, we got through these and are still together. Those last two dreams are puzzling for that reason; there's nothing wrong with our relationship at the moment, but I suspect I know why I had them. I'm experiencing some family issues at the moment with my mum and sister (long story - not for the internet), and it's made me really appreciate my relationship with my girlfriend, whom I value more than ever because she's keeping me sane right now. I haven't told her this yet, so maybe I should. Since my last entry, a lot has changed, and she has gone back to her old self and isn't so religious anymore, which was the very thing that almost drove me away.
The first dream I believe relates to the ongoing issues with my family concerning religion. As I mentioned in another entry, I was raised a Christian, but de-converted some time ago. I never told either my mother nor my sister, but one of my friends who also knows my sister outed me a few months ago by accident. Ever since then, I've been worried about my mother finding out as she is very devout and this would cause huge problems. Me being a prisoner on bail in that dream symbolised how I'd be treated by them (especially my mum). My sister chasing me down the road, I think represents her attempts to try and re-convert me, which have not and will not be successful.
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