Feminist magic

The weirdest thing about this dream the feeling it left me with as I woke up.

In this dream, I was in a library, browsing the many books on display.  I recall seeing a few interesting looking graphic novels, but the book that especially caught my eye was one called 'Practical magic for Feminists'.

The book was on top of a tall shelf and took considerable effort to reach.  It had a light blue cover and some pattern scrawled on the front.  It also came with an audio CD which started playing as soon as I picked up the book.  The music sounded pretty cool, but I can't really remember it all that well.  The book intrigued me, mostly because of the music.  Despite this, I returned the book to its shelf and decided not to get it.  I later changed my mind because I felt something compelling me to borrow it; so I rushed to the counter with my library card but forgot to bring the book with me.  The woman at the counter laughed at my absent-mindedness and said she'd wait as I rushed back to grab the book.

I went back to the room where I found it, but all the bookshelves had changed, and I couldn't see the book anywhere.  I started to panic and looked around the room, but there was no sign of it.  I then went to other areas of the library to no avail.  By this point, it was near closing time and there were not many people around.

The dream ended as I continued to search futilely for the missing book.  I woke with a deep, anxious longing.

What's particularly odd about this dream is that I am not a feminist at all.  Like most reasonable people, I am all for gender equality, but find modern feminism to be too toxic and hateful, yet here I was searching for a book about feminism.  Feminist magic, no less.

I was having an online debate with someone about feminism the day before, so it may be related to that, but I somehow feel there's more to it than just that.