A burning desire

Before fully getting into this, I have intermittent recurring dreams about visiting a library. As well as books, the library has comics and records, and in the dreams I am either looking for something or trying to grab as many items as take my fancy.  This dream has come up quite a few times, but I don't always remember it fully.  In one, there was a comic series that I wanted but for some reason, I wasn't able to borrow the comic, but really wanted to.

In this particular dream, I was looking for some records, but couldn't find the record section of the library at first.  I asked someone who directed me to a spiral staircase that lead to the first floor. I hesitated at first as I wasn't sure it was open to the public, but was assured that it was.  I went up there and found myself in an area I recall from other dreams in the past. I was in a large hall-like room with a long table in the middle of it.  The room had a very stately, but gothic feel to it, and there was even a gargoyle-like statue in the room that moved. I walked down the room looking for the record section then bumped into a friend of mine I'll call D. The area we were in then changed to some kind of outdoor gig event and we were on a raised area above most of the crowd, giving us a view of the stage from a  good height.  

D started telling me about the band that was playing and who she wished was also playing. We then sat down along a nearby wall and continued to watch the gig.  At one point, a group of rowdy teenage boys sat to my left. I also recall one of them smelled a bit.  Thankfully, they didn't stick around and eventually left. I became worried that my friend might've thought the smell came from me, but she didn't seem to notice either way.

After the boys left, she grabbed my hand and brought it to her lap where she held it. I froze, not knowing what to do next, but also feeling this intense desire from her and that she wanted me to make the next move. I felt awkward as I didn't know what to say next; not out of shyness (I have no problems talking to women IRL or situations like this), but simply because it completely caught me off-guard and I never knew she felt this way.  The dream ended as I turned to face her.

IRL, this friend is married with kids. I too am in a relationship (as you may know if you've been reading) and now have a child of my own.  I hadn't been thinking of her in this sort of way at all so don't know where that came from.  Nevertheless, the intense feeling of desire that emanated from her in this dream was so powerful that it haunts me now, even as I type this.

Nakedness/Ascension

In this dream, I'd gone to visit a friend I will call K.  I asked her how she was and she said she wasn't well and was going through a lot (in real life, she is actually unwell, so this somewhat accurate).  I then asked if there was anything I could do to help her and she mentioned there was something in her flat that needed fixing, so I offered my assistance.

I then found myself with my back to her as I worked on doing some DIY on a piece of furniture in her living room.  At that point, the room was filled with voices as guests suddenly appeared (in that way things suddenly just seem to happen in dreams). As they all talked, I heard someone mention gaming, and my friend K said she doesn't play video games because the controllers hurt her hands (which is something she would probably say IRL).  Anyway, I turned to face the guests and it was at this point that I suddenly realised I was naked. In spite of that, everyone carried on talking as this wasn't unusual, but I felt uncomfortable and embarrassed.  

The dream then suddenly changed and I was out on the street. I was fully clothed again, but still embarrassed about before and wanted to get away. I started to fly away as I often do in my dreams, but a passer by pulled me back down.  I took off again and was more successful this time, but found it difficult to control my movements and kept getting stuck (which sometimes happens in my flying dreams).  However, a voice told me that I needed to "learn how to ascend" so I could fly unhindered, and heeding this voice, I worked towards improving my technique a little, and then woke up.

Naked dreams are something of a cliche, but this is the first time I've ever had one.  I also took this dream as an opportunity to reach out to my friend and find out if she's OK as I haven't spoken to her in months and I am genuinely concerned about her.

Confinement/Crash

 I had both of these dreams the night before, but I am writing them down now.

In the first, my fiancee and I were walking along a street as she was taking me somewhere.  As we walked, she climbed over a railing on the side of the road with a drop on the other side and asked me to follow, but when she got to the bottom, she kept on walking and didn't stop to wait for me. I climbed over the side and realised the drop was much further than I first thought but just about managed to make it and keep up with her. 

The same thing happened moments later, only this time the drop was further and by the time I'd made it, she was nowhere to be found.  I ran along the street looking for her but she wasn't there.  I ended up in a building that looked like a school and waded through small crowds of people.  As I walked, the walls in the corridors started closing in until the gap was too small for me to walk though.  I consequently turned around to head back but now there was a wall behind me and I was trapped. I started crying out in my sleep and my fiancee woke me up.

In the second dream, I was walking along a road at night and as I went to cross it, I saw a van flip and roll with a sickening crash.  I ran out of the way so I wouldn't get caught up in it then reached for my phone to call emergency services as the van was a wreck, and I feared that whoever was in it would either be dead or seriously injured.  However, before I could make the call, the driver miraculously crawled out unscathed and told me not to call anybody because he was fine. I didn't quite believe him though as he was clearly very shaken.

Nope

 I was at a house party with mostly unknown people (one notable exception being a guy I know in real life who, in this dream was dating a Youtuber whose content I watch regularly).  Anyway, as the party progressed, people started talking about doing a ouija board later on to "summon spirits".  I didn't like the sound of that so started making plans to leave.

Around the time they were about to start, I headed for the front door but found it was locked.  Fortunately, I had a set of keys and tried them until one of them eventually unlocked the door.  I got as far as unlocking my car, but just then, some children who were also at the part ran up to it and one attempted to get it, forcing me to lock it again.  I then conceded that it might be safer to leave on foot as I didn't want people surrounding my car or trying to prevent me from leaving.

As I thought this, I noticed that more partygoers had spilled out onto the street and, as anticipated, intended to stop me from leaving.  Fortunately, I was able to fly away to safety and heard some of the kids shouting "Look! He's flying off!".  As I did that, I turned around to see that the party people had now set my car on fire and though I was disappointed, I was happier that I wasn't in it at the time and that I had at least got away.

The world ends without you

This was a two part dream.  

The world was minutes away from an armageddon-level event caused either by nuclear warfare or environmental disasters (I'm not sure which, but it wasn't good).  Everyone had been instructed go head to their nearest shelter and await further instructions.  I was surrounded by people panicking and fleeing in all directions.  I was also acutely aware that I didn't have my fiancee with me as she was several miles away in another town. I also had no way of reaching her.

This part of the dream ended as I headed out into the night looking for the other shelter.  The streets were nearly empty and the sky pitch black.  I saw very few people out on the street and missed my fiancee.  A sad song played in the background with lyrics from a song I wrote years ago. I woke up feeling very melancholy.

When I went back to sleep, the dream continued, but this time, I had my fiancee with me.  We were looking for a shelter together this time and people around us were running around in terror.  I then told my fiancee that I knew we could escape the impending disaster by jumping into a parallel dimension, but to do so, we'd have to go to a park on the top of a hill that was in the opposite direction of the shelter everyone was running to.  This dream ended as we held hands and started to head towards the park.

Stranger danger

 My recollection of this dream is somewhat disjointed, so I'll share what I remember.

It started with me in a village somewhere in East Asia (think Indonesia).  I was in what looked like a paddy field and it was near dark.  I was staying with a family who lived in a bamboo house in the field itself. At one point, I was in the  house with the family then went outside.

While outside, I was talking to two of the household's men (the father and oldest brother, I think) as I looked across the expanse of the field.  Across the field itself, I saw other huts and also got a sense that I'd been to this place before in another dream.

Anyway, at some point, the men told me it was not safe to be outside after dark as there were creatures that roamed the fields at night.  As soon as they said this I saw four of these creatures in the distance.  They looked like ghostly zombies but moved very quickly and strangely.  I then noticed that the men had disappeared, leaving me alone to try and flee these creatures.  

I tried to run back to the house, but the creatures were blocking my path, leaving me no choice but to run in the other direction.  I was able to fly as I often can in my dreams and took off to escape.  After a short while, I was in another land entirely and it was now daytime; a clear blue sky on a sunny day.

I flew past several buildings with signs I couldn't read (the writing looked like what you see of text in AI images) and landed in what looked like the middle of a runway.  I spoke to two young women who were milling about and asked their names (I wasn't trying to hit on them, I just wanted to get a sense of where I was).  They were very cagey and didn't want to speak to me at first but eventually did.  The first girl, oddly had the same name as me when I asked, and, even stranger the second said her name was "Clarence". I spoke to a third girl who was incredibly suspicious and thought I was some kind of spy.  I kept on denying this, but she didn't believe me.  The dream ended as she stabbed me in the stomach, which I actually felt, but instead of waking up, I entered a state of sleep paralysis where I could feel the sensation in my stomach from the wound (it wasn't painful, but it was very unpleasant). I eventually woke up, disorientated and confused.

Old haunts revisited, LSD and ghostly lovers

OK, so there’s a lot to cover here but I’ll try to summarise it all as succinctly as I can.

 

At the time of writing this entry, it’s a Friday. I had two dreams earlier this week where I revisited old workplaces. The second of these was a college that I’ve actually visited in previous dreams, only this time it seemed bigger and I kept getting lost.  It is immensely fascinating to me how you can go somewhere in a dream and then dream of the same place again in a later dream. It’s as though these places have taken form as real locations that exist in your subconscious somehow.

 

Anyway, fast forwarding to last night, I had the following dreams:

 

1.     Mike Patton had come to my house with a lasagne he’d made for my partner and I.  Shortly after eating it, she started laughing uncontrollably, and I started to hallucinate, which is when I realise the lasagne had been spiked with LSD.

 

2.     A friend I haven’t seen in a few years invited my partner and I to a party in a city street that was submerged in water. My fiancée didn’t want to go in the water, so I went alone.  My friend was there with her own partner and their child (who was on her partner’s back), but when I tried to speak to her, I realised her mouth had been sewn shut and she couldn’t talk back.

 

3.     I was observing, in first person, the life of a lonely, widowed man who lived in an old, dilapidated house.  In the dream, I observed his actions and could hear his thoughts; it was as if I was in his head.  He visited a pub where he appeared to be the only patron. Behind the bar were the landlord, an older man who was at the corner of the bar cleaning glasses and a young female barmaid who served the man whose life I was viewing.  These were the only 3 people in this pub.  The young woman was actually a ghost of a barmaid who’d committed suicide, but was still somehow able to serve the man whose eyes I was seeing through.  They chatted for a while and it became clear that he had a thing for this barmaid and the feelings were mutual.  However, because she was a ghost they couldn’t be together, but she told him there was a way they could. Later in the dream, I saw from his POV as they made love and in doing so everything went black and he “became nothing”. Shortly after that, he became a ghost, just like the barmaid after which they could finally be together. He left behind a rundown house and three large pet beetles.

 

The second and third dreams left me with a strange feeling.  The third in particualar where I felt the lovemaking and woke up with an erection, near the point of ejaculation.  The whole thing was like something out of a Haruki Murakami novel.

That 70s dream

 

My fiancée and I were staying at a house somewhere.  I think we were on holiday or something, but I can’t remember.

 

Anyway, the house itself was large and there were many other guests there.  The décor was very 70s, with browns and sickly creams and coarse, ugly patterns as far as the eye could see.  Everything was also very old looking and dusty.

 

The people who owned the house were incredibly eccentric and creepy, as were the other guests.  At one point, I was talking with a woman who was a student, and she was telling me about some of the books she was reading for her course.  Later on, she accused me of stealing her books and made me open my bag in front of other people, which I was happy to do as I knew I hadn’t taken them.  She was then very shamefaced, but I was indignant because of her accusation and gave her a hard time about it.  A friend of mine from real life then showed up, wanting to know what the commotion was and I told him what had happened.  I then learned that the woman was his sister (he does have a sister IRL but she doesn’t look anything the woman in this dream). He wanted me to go easy on her, but I wasn’t having it.

 

Later on, I learned that the owners of this house intended to keep us all captive but I told my fiancée that I was going to find a way to get us out of there and started looking for a way to escape.

 

I eventually managed to sneak out through a back door which led to a beach with people swimming in the sea. Continuing the 70s theme, the scene looked grainy and saturated like old 8mm film footage.

 

I gingerly crept away from the house, walked across a rocky outcrop and found myself looking at some other houses that bordered the beach area.  I had a feeling the people from the house would be coming to look for me so I flew off into the air, flew over the houses and into a field on the other side.  I knew I’d left my fiancée behind, but I’d intended to come back with a party to rescue her.  The dream ended as I landed in the field on the other side of the beach, narrowly avoiding two busses that were riding past and skidded to avoid hitting me.