This dream jumped around a bit, but the gist of it is as follows.
I was in a strange building at night time. Behind a glass panel I saw lots of people, men and women who appeared to get a kick out of pain and torture. Some of these people had blades attached to their bodies by chains and would shake their bodies around to spin the blades so they would cut each other and themselves.
The location then changed and I was standing outside this complex with a woman who was looking for her daughter called Whitney. Whitney had been taken from her in a legal battle with her ex, the girl's father. This did not appear to be connected to the torture that was happening before, but it was outside the same building.
The next thing I know, I'm in the building again and behind the glass panel, I see 6 men stood around a large table. Someone then drags a young black woman onto the table and take off her dress. She is squirming and desperately struggling to break free, but cannot. One of the men produces a large knife and stabs it into her open mouth, which produces a piecing scream and blood. He then slices her open, cutting all the way from her jaw, down her torso and lower body to the tip of her vagina. The whole time, she is screaming and writhing in pain. The men then try to pull her skeleton from her body whilst she is still alive and manage to do so. She dies in the process.
The girl's screams were so distressing, they woke me up.
This is probably one of the most disturbing dreams I've ever had. And no, I haven't been watching any horror films. Given the unusual and unsettling nature of this dream, I went here for help trying to figure out, and was shocked that it really described what I have been going through.
As the dream dictionary suggests, the torture was used as a symbolic device to represent certain emotions; in my case extreme stress and a dread of what is around the corner. This is due to some family issues which again, I won't go into on here. Either way, the day before, I was doing some very hard thinking and arrived at some conclusions which unsettled me, and I think this dream was just my subconscious mind's way of showing me just how difficult I'm finding things with my family at the moment.
Saturday, 19 May 2012
Recurring dreams: At my mother's house
I haven't posted here in a very long time. The reason being that my my dreams have been very fragmented, abstract and not terribly noteworthy for months. I'd wake up and only remember tiny snippets.
However, in between these mostly nonsensical dreams, I'd get ones that stood out. I've decided to compile them all here as they seem to revolve around a similar theme; that is, in these dreams I'm living at my mother's house again.
Dream #1
In the first of these dreams, I'm a prisoner who is out on bail and staying at my mum's. My sister is there, too. Both are very cold towards me. At one point, I decide to go outside the front door. It is a nice sunny day outside. As I am out on bail, they're supposed to be keeping an eye on me to make sure I don't wander off too far, so as soon I step outside, they get suspicious.
I am stood at the end of the path that leads to the house and as one of them approaches, I decide to make a run for it, so I turn left down the road and keep on running. My sister follows me, but isn't able to catch me.
Dream #2
In the second dream, I'm living in my mum's house with my girlfriend. The interior of the house in this dream looks nothing like it does in real life. I'm lounging on the sofa and find some photographs of my girlfriend having three-way sex with two other men. At this point, she approaches me to take away the pictures, but it's too late, I've already seen them, and I tell her. She tries to make an excuse, but I tell her she's "just like all the others" and push her away.
I run outside the house with the intent of running away from my girlfriend. She follows me, brandishing a gun which she uses to try and shoot me. However, I get on a bike and pedal away, this time going right. As I'm riding, I keep looking back, half hoping that she's following me, but she doesn't. It also gets dark and very soon, it's nighttime. I eventually meet a group of lads who surround me and we end up jumping into a large van together.
Dream #3
In this dream, I'm living in the house with my girlfriend again, and she tells me she's had an abortion. I'm very upset that she didn't consult me, but later found out she made it up as a ruse to get my attention. I then get angry at her for playing such a sick joke and kick her out of the house along with her belongings. Later, I'm in what would normally be my mother's room and hear someone crying outside. I think it's my girlfriend, but I look out the window and realise it is actually my sister, and that my girlfriend is no longer there.
In the last entry, I mentioned problems I was having in my relationship with my girlfriend. Fortunately, we got through these and are still together. Those last two dreams are puzzling for that reason; there's nothing wrong with our relationship at the moment, but I suspect I know why I had them. I'm experiencing some family issues at the moment with my mum and sister (long story - not for the internet), and it's made me really appreciate my relationship with my girlfriend, whom I value more than ever because she's keeping me sane right now. I haven't told her this yet, so maybe I should. Since my last entry, a lot has changed, and she has gone back to her old self and isn't so religious anymore, which was the very thing that almost drove me away.
The first dream I believe relates to the ongoing issues with my family concerning religion. As I mentioned in another entry, I was raised a Christian, but de-converted some time ago. I never told either my mother nor my sister, but one of my friends who also knows my sister outed me a few months ago by accident. Ever since then, I've been worried about my mother finding out as she is very devout and this would cause huge problems. Me being a prisoner on bail in that dream symbolised how I'd be treated by them (especially my mum). My sister chasing me down the road, I think represents her attempts to try and re-convert me, which have not and will not be successful.
Wednesday, 19 October 2011
Double murder
Straight and to the point, the title says it all. This is probably one of the grimmest and most messed up dreams I've had. Even more so than this dream.
One of the weirdest things about it (other than the content, which I will get to shortly) is the way it kept shifting perspectives. At some points I was watching it happen, as though it was a TV program, at other times, I was an active participant, and at other moments, it was as though I was reading some kind of script which described the motives, thoughts and actions of its characters. I'll try to explain this as best as I can throughout.
The dream started with me watching a man being killed. He walked past a white car and the man in the car rolled down the window, grabbed the man who was walking past and put him in some kind of headlock where he was caught by his neck and couldn't move. The man in the car then whispered the word "Dead!" three times into the ear of the man he'd grabbed in a voice that was genuinely chilling. Eventually, the man he was holding collapsed and died. At this point, I went from being an observer to a participant, only I appeared to be following some kind of script. I became aware of the fact that the man who was killed was connected to me in some way as was his killer, and that he would be after me next.
I then remember reading some sort of script that told me that the character I was playing needed to lay low for a while, which I did by returning to the place where I lived in this dream, which was actually my mother's house in real life. I got to the house, locked the front door and closed all the curtains. I also make a point of crouching below the windows so nobody could see me outside (in case the killer chanced by and saw me). However upon locking up, I suddenly knew that I was not alone in the house. I was then suddenly in what would be my mother's room in this house, I stepped out into the corridor and saw a woman walking away from me. She had also been sent after me by the killer. I sneaked up behind her with a coathanger, grabbed her from behind and pushed her onto the ground in what used to be my old bedroom. Once on the floor, I started interrogating her.
I asked her why she was here, who she was and what she wanted, but she would not answer my questions even with the tip of a coathanger pressed against her neck (it was all I had). This is where it gets really fucked up. I then tore off this woman's underclothes and threatened to rape her. Thing is, I had no intention of actually following through with the act, I just wanted to scare her into talking, but that didn't work either as she just threatened to tell the police(!). At this point I felt worried and ashamed: worried at the possible outcome of her telling the police (even though she was colluding with a murderer herself), and ashamed at what I had become. Anyway, I now realised I had nothing to lose and murdered the woman. There was a suitcase nearby which I emptied with the intent of forcing her body into it. The last thing I remember doing was cutting up a magazine, which was in some way connected to me killing this woman. I woke up around this point.
POSSIBLE MEANING: This is where it gets interesting. I consulted a dream dictionary regarding murder in dreams. The symbols appear to be spot on. The day before, my girlfriend and I had an argument. I'm going to see her this weekend (she lives out of town) and she wanted me to go to church with her the day I would be leaving. I explained that I couldn't because it would make me late for my train home, which she knew would be the case. However, she got upset with me anyway and we ended up fighting, which we hadn't done for months. There used to be a time though when we argued all the time, every week in fact. It used to stress me out because it seemed as though she like the drama. To my mind, it didn't bode well that two people in a long distance relationship should be arguing all the time (especially over what was mostly petty, trifling nonsense), but she seemed to like it. She'd either pick fights or goad me into one by saying things that would provoke or upset me. Anyway, one of the last big fights we had (around my birthday), I almost broke up with her which I think caused her to stop all this drama, hence us not having fought again up until now.
After this fight, we exchanged a few angry texts and I said that I wasn't going to come up to see her anymore. I didn't really mean it though, I was just very angry that she'd started what I saw to be another stupid argument (I thought we'd got past that) and just wanted to get at her. It turns out the real reason she got upset was because I'd resisted going to church with her in the past and this just brought that back (typical woman in that she didn't just say so at the time but just flew off the handle instead). Anyway, this whole incident got me very riled because it put a dampener on what was going to be a good weekend. Two days before going up to see her for her birthday, she starts an argument, just like she did two days before my birthday. It bought it all back to me.
Now, I think the part in the dream where I threatened to rape the woman just to scare her into talking symbolised me threatening not to go up to see my girlfriend on her birthday. In both instances, I had no intention of following through with the act, it was just a bluffing tactic which failed to work. The dream dictionary symbols regarding anger were represented by the murders in this dream. It states that murder represents the resistance to something; in this case, my girlfriend's insistence in trying to coerce me into religion (if you've been following my other dreams, you should already know why that's not going to work). It also represents the potential end of a relationship. I write this dream at 6AM in the morning, hours before I'm to get on a train to go up and see her for what may be the last time. We have reached an impasse. She has become a hardcore fundamentalist, I lost my faith some time ago. We are headed in two opposite directions. I think I have to put an end to this relationship, and this dream appears to be alluding to just that.
It's a shame because, silly fights notwithstanding, we had something good, but hey, religion divides.
One of the weirdest things about it (other than the content, which I will get to shortly) is the way it kept shifting perspectives. At some points I was watching it happen, as though it was a TV program, at other times, I was an active participant, and at other moments, it was as though I was reading some kind of script which described the motives, thoughts and actions of its characters. I'll try to explain this as best as I can throughout.
The dream started with me watching a man being killed. He walked past a white car and the man in the car rolled down the window, grabbed the man who was walking past and put him in some kind of headlock where he was caught by his neck and couldn't move. The man in the car then whispered the word "Dead!" three times into the ear of the man he'd grabbed in a voice that was genuinely chilling. Eventually, the man he was holding collapsed and died. At this point, I went from being an observer to a participant, only I appeared to be following some kind of script. I became aware of the fact that the man who was killed was connected to me in some way as was his killer, and that he would be after me next.
I then remember reading some sort of script that told me that the character I was playing needed to lay low for a while, which I did by returning to the place where I lived in this dream, which was actually my mother's house in real life. I got to the house, locked the front door and closed all the curtains. I also make a point of crouching below the windows so nobody could see me outside (in case the killer chanced by and saw me). However upon locking up, I suddenly knew that I was not alone in the house. I was then suddenly in what would be my mother's room in this house, I stepped out into the corridor and saw a woman walking away from me. She had also been sent after me by the killer. I sneaked up behind her with a coathanger, grabbed her from behind and pushed her onto the ground in what used to be my old bedroom. Once on the floor, I started interrogating her.
I asked her why she was here, who she was and what she wanted, but she would not answer my questions even with the tip of a coathanger pressed against her neck (it was all I had). This is where it gets really fucked up. I then tore off this woman's underclothes and threatened to rape her. Thing is, I had no intention of actually following through with the act, I just wanted to scare her into talking, but that didn't work either as she just threatened to tell the police(!). At this point I felt worried and ashamed: worried at the possible outcome of her telling the police (even though she was colluding with a murderer herself), and ashamed at what I had become. Anyway, I now realised I had nothing to lose and murdered the woman. There was a suitcase nearby which I emptied with the intent of forcing her body into it. The last thing I remember doing was cutting up a magazine, which was in some way connected to me killing this woman. I woke up around this point.
POSSIBLE MEANING: This is where it gets interesting. I consulted a dream dictionary regarding murder in dreams. The symbols appear to be spot on. The day before, my girlfriend and I had an argument. I'm going to see her this weekend (she lives out of town) and she wanted me to go to church with her the day I would be leaving. I explained that I couldn't because it would make me late for my train home, which she knew would be the case. However, she got upset with me anyway and we ended up fighting, which we hadn't done for months. There used to be a time though when we argued all the time, every week in fact. It used to stress me out because it seemed as though she like the drama. To my mind, it didn't bode well that two people in a long distance relationship should be arguing all the time (especially over what was mostly petty, trifling nonsense), but she seemed to like it. She'd either pick fights or goad me into one by saying things that would provoke or upset me. Anyway, one of the last big fights we had (around my birthday), I almost broke up with her which I think caused her to stop all this drama, hence us not having fought again up until now.
After this fight, we exchanged a few angry texts and I said that I wasn't going to come up to see her anymore. I didn't really mean it though, I was just very angry that she'd started what I saw to be another stupid argument (I thought we'd got past that) and just wanted to get at her. It turns out the real reason she got upset was because I'd resisted going to church with her in the past and this just brought that back (typical woman in that she didn't just say so at the time but just flew off the handle instead). Anyway, this whole incident got me very riled because it put a dampener on what was going to be a good weekend. Two days before going up to see her for her birthday, she starts an argument, just like she did two days before my birthday. It bought it all back to me.
Now, I think the part in the dream where I threatened to rape the woman just to scare her into talking symbolised me threatening not to go up to see my girlfriend on her birthday. In both instances, I had no intention of following through with the act, it was just a bluffing tactic which failed to work. The dream dictionary symbols regarding anger were represented by the murders in this dream. It states that murder represents the resistance to something; in this case, my girlfriend's insistence in trying to coerce me into religion (if you've been following my other dreams, you should already know why that's not going to work). It also represents the potential end of a relationship. I write this dream at 6AM in the morning, hours before I'm to get on a train to go up and see her for what may be the last time. We have reached an impasse. She has become a hardcore fundamentalist, I lost my faith some time ago. We are headed in two opposite directions. I think I have to put an end to this relationship, and this dream appears to be alluding to just that.
It's a shame because, silly fights notwithstanding, we had something good, but hey, religion divides.
Tuesday, 4 October 2011
Fire in the mind/True form
I had this dream not long after falling asleep in the early hours of the morning.
From what I remember, I was at my mother's house in my old bedroom where I spent much of my childhood. It was empty save my old bunk bed and stacks of magazines I'd dumped there. For some reason, I was reading the magazines in the room. I also had a gun with me with the intent of shooting anybody who walked in on me.
The dream then changed and I was standing outside in the back garden of the same house. It was night time and al the lights were off in the house save the kitchen (which is accessed by going in through the back door), and my bedroom (which can also be seen from the outside from where I was).
My sister was there with me and so was my mother's gossipy neighbour (I mention her in another dream on here a couple of years back). The neighbour ran over and said she could smell burning, and kept pointing up at my bedroom window; she seemed convinced that someone was up there setting fire to the place. I panicked and decided to go in and investigate, taking my gun with me (I don't know what I had a gun, I just did). My sister followed after me, but didn't come up the stairs with me to my room. When I got there, I found the lights on, but nobody was there. There was also smoke, but no fire, and no discernible source. Even so, I was convinced someone was there, so I explored the other rooms (bathroom and the other two bedrooms), but found no-one. Also, the other rooms were in complete darkness.
The dream switched again and I was back downstairs talking to my mother, who was a different woman in this dream. This time, the downstairs part of the house had also changed and the lights were now on. I also had a step dad and step brother (both of whom were very fat), which I do not have IRL. My mum was telling me that last time she saw me, she didn't feel we connected anymore. I said I was sorry she felt that way and embraced her, saying that I'd try harder.
Then, an argument flared up between my step dad and I, and my mum joined in. I angrily retorted and told both of them that I was leaving and not coming back and that I never wanted to see either of them ever again. I walked out into the street (it was still dark outside) and started walking up the road. My step brother kept on taunting me, so I told him to "Piss off". My stepdad then started chasing me up the road, and for a fat guy, he could run.
Anyway, I ran from him until I got to the corner of the road, where I heard a voice say "It's time to show them your true form". I turned around to face my stepdad and said "I'm not the person you think I am" and then started to transform into a huge beast. I felt myself growing in size and strength and my stepdad and brother backed off and started shooting at me, but because of my size, the bullets had no effect. I used my strength and size to push them back, but I wasn't trying to kill them, I just wanted them to back off and leave me alone. That was it.
POSSIBLE MEANING: I've been having a lot of issue in my life with religion and religious people lately. You see, many years ago I used to be a Christian myself, but I deconverted, and this has become more apparent in the last few years, my apostasy strengthening the more I learn about how twisted and corrupt Christianity truly is. The more I learn, the less I want to do with it. However I am almost sandwiched by it. My mother and sister are believers, and so is my girlfriend of 2 years (who suddenly went hardcore this summer, as represented by this dream). I recently told my girlfriend, my sister found out through another person blabbing and the only person who does not know is my mother, and there's no way I could tell her.
I think this dream touches on the whole thing of me "coming out" to my mother (that is "showing my true form"). Me being chased around I think represents the Christians in my life who do know trying to draw me back into it. In the dream, I resist the people who tried to shoot me, but I didn't want to kill them, just get them to back off. Similarly, I do not wish to try to deconvert my girlfriend, sister or anyone; they have their own paths to walk, and if they leave the faith, they should do so because of themselves and not because of me. This I think is represented by me trying not to kill the people shooting at me.
From what I remember, I was at my mother's house in my old bedroom where I spent much of my childhood. It was empty save my old bunk bed and stacks of magazines I'd dumped there. For some reason, I was reading the magazines in the room. I also had a gun with me with the intent of shooting anybody who walked in on me.
The dream then changed and I was standing outside in the back garden of the same house. It was night time and al the lights were off in the house save the kitchen (which is accessed by going in through the back door), and my bedroom (which can also be seen from the outside from where I was).
My sister was there with me and so was my mother's gossipy neighbour (I mention her in another dream on here a couple of years back). The neighbour ran over and said she could smell burning, and kept pointing up at my bedroom window; she seemed convinced that someone was up there setting fire to the place. I panicked and decided to go in and investigate, taking my gun with me (I don't know what I had a gun, I just did). My sister followed after me, but didn't come up the stairs with me to my room. When I got there, I found the lights on, but nobody was there. There was also smoke, but no fire, and no discernible source. Even so, I was convinced someone was there, so I explored the other rooms (bathroom and the other two bedrooms), but found no-one. Also, the other rooms were in complete darkness.
The dream switched again and I was back downstairs talking to my mother, who was a different woman in this dream. This time, the downstairs part of the house had also changed and the lights were now on. I also had a step dad and step brother (both of whom were very fat), which I do not have IRL. My mum was telling me that last time she saw me, she didn't feel we connected anymore. I said I was sorry she felt that way and embraced her, saying that I'd try harder.
Then, an argument flared up between my step dad and I, and my mum joined in. I angrily retorted and told both of them that I was leaving and not coming back and that I never wanted to see either of them ever again. I walked out into the street (it was still dark outside) and started walking up the road. My step brother kept on taunting me, so I told him to "Piss off". My stepdad then started chasing me up the road, and for a fat guy, he could run.
Anyway, I ran from him until I got to the corner of the road, where I heard a voice say "It's time to show them your true form". I turned around to face my stepdad and said "I'm not the person you think I am" and then started to transform into a huge beast. I felt myself growing in size and strength and my stepdad and brother backed off and started shooting at me, but because of my size, the bullets had no effect. I used my strength and size to push them back, but I wasn't trying to kill them, I just wanted them to back off and leave me alone. That was it.
POSSIBLE MEANING: I've been having a lot of issue in my life with religion and religious people lately. You see, many years ago I used to be a Christian myself, but I deconverted, and this has become more apparent in the last few years, my apostasy strengthening the more I learn about how twisted and corrupt Christianity truly is. The more I learn, the less I want to do with it. However I am almost sandwiched by it. My mother and sister are believers, and so is my girlfriend of 2 years (who suddenly went hardcore this summer, as represented by this dream). I recently told my girlfriend, my sister found out through another person blabbing and the only person who does not know is my mother, and there's no way I could tell her.
I think this dream touches on the whole thing of me "coming out" to my mother (that is "showing my true form"). Me being chased around I think represents the Christians in my life who do know trying to draw me back into it. In the dream, I resist the people who tried to shoot me, but I didn't want to kill them, just get them to back off. Similarly, I do not wish to try to deconvert my girlfriend, sister or anyone; they have their own paths to walk, and if they leave the faith, they should do so because of themselves and not because of me. This I think is represented by me trying not to kill the people shooting at me.
Sunday, 31 July 2011
Not of this earth
I've had a number of similar dreams to this one in the past, but for some reason, I've never written any down.
This dream started out in a friends bedroom. Just behind his headboard was a large window which seemed to lead into another dimension. I stepped through this window and found myself looking over a vast cityscape from above. Whenever I've had similar dreams, I seem to fly around until I wanted to land, and that's what I did here.
When I landed, it was night time and people were milling about on the city streets. I saw a crowd of people in fromnt of me and tried talking to them, but as soon as people saw me, they walked off and wanted nothing to do with me. It reminded me of the last out of body dream I had in that people seemed surprised when I asked where I was and acted like I was some sort of freak to be shunned.
I ended up in a shopping arcade. I walked past a food stall run by a young woman who, upon seeing me hung up a 'Closed' sign and gave me a look of straight faced defiance. The atmosphere in this place was cold everywhere I went. Nobody would talk to me, shops wouldn't serve me, and all I wanted was to know where I was.
Later I found myself going through a turnstile as if to catch a train. There was a woman with me; she was in her early 40s and was the only person in the entire place (save a freakish alien looking thing that tried to kiss me) that spoke to me. It turns out she was in the same predicament as me (being avoided by everyone), so we became friends through that.
The two of us walked through the turnstile as we had "trains" to catch; apparently we were from different worlds and were both strangers in this place in which we'd found ourselves, which might explain the coldness of the others (it could well be that they didn't speak out language and therefore could not understand us). Anyway, when we got through the turnstile we found ourselves staring out across a beautifully scenic expanse. The sky was pink and orange with a few clouds in the distance. The sun shone across the panorama with a literally golden glow. The beauty of the view was otherworldly, unlike anything from "this" world and therefore hard to describe. To return to our home worlds, we had to take off and fly, which we did, both going our separate ways.
POSSIBLE MEANING: It has been suggested that some dreams are like a form of inter-dimensional travel and that as our physical bodies rest, our consciousness goes elsewhere. I happen to believe there is some truth to that, and in this and similar dreams, I'm convinced that I was in some world beyond this dimension and that the people I saw knew I was not from their world, which makes me wonder what they might have seen or heard of me from their own POV.
This dream started out in a friends bedroom. Just behind his headboard was a large window which seemed to lead into another dimension. I stepped through this window and found myself looking over a vast cityscape from above. Whenever I've had similar dreams, I seem to fly around until I wanted to land, and that's what I did here.
When I landed, it was night time and people were milling about on the city streets. I saw a crowd of people in fromnt of me and tried talking to them, but as soon as people saw me, they walked off and wanted nothing to do with me. It reminded me of the last out of body dream I had in that people seemed surprised when I asked where I was and acted like I was some sort of freak to be shunned.
I ended up in a shopping arcade. I walked past a food stall run by a young woman who, upon seeing me hung up a 'Closed' sign and gave me a look of straight faced defiance. The atmosphere in this place was cold everywhere I went. Nobody would talk to me, shops wouldn't serve me, and all I wanted was to know where I was.
Later I found myself going through a turnstile as if to catch a train. There was a woman with me; she was in her early 40s and was the only person in the entire place (save a freakish alien looking thing that tried to kiss me) that spoke to me. It turns out she was in the same predicament as me (being avoided by everyone), so we became friends through that.
The two of us walked through the turnstile as we had "trains" to catch; apparently we were from different worlds and were both strangers in this place in which we'd found ourselves, which might explain the coldness of the others (it could well be that they didn't speak out language and therefore could not understand us). Anyway, when we got through the turnstile we found ourselves staring out across a beautifully scenic expanse. The sky was pink and orange with a few clouds in the distance. The sun shone across the panorama with a literally golden glow. The beauty of the view was otherworldly, unlike anything from "this" world and therefore hard to describe. To return to our home worlds, we had to take off and fly, which we did, both going our separate ways.
POSSIBLE MEANING: It has been suggested that some dreams are like a form of inter-dimensional travel and that as our physical bodies rest, our consciousness goes elsewhere. I happen to believe there is some truth to that, and in this and similar dreams, I'm convinced that I was in some world beyond this dimension and that the people I saw knew I was not from their world, which makes me wonder what they might have seen or heard of me from their own POV.
Recurring dreams: Hotel
Saturday 30th July
Another hotel dream. Interestingly, the hotel itself has showed up in some of my previous hotel dreams.
In this dream, I was staying in a room on the 2nd floor, and the 3rd floor was haunted. I had another dream just like this not long ago, but I don't think I remembered to write it down. In the dream, I just avoided the 3rd floor, but I eventually had to go there for something.
When I got there, I went to a particular room. There was a man there who looked a bit like Ricky Gervais, but with stubble. He wore a long black trenchcoat. He was talking to another man in the room about my girlfriend and got annoyed when I interrupted. He told me I was getting into things I didn't understand. The scene then switched to my girlfriend being out in the street somewhere, but I don't remember the details anymore unfortunately.
The dream then went back to the hotel, and I discovered that there was actually a 4th floor, but it was not for guests. It was for staff use only and was used for maintenance purposes. I was with a group of about 3 other people including a short South American woman in her 40s. She seemed to know all about the 4th floor. I think she may have been a cleaner at the hotel or something. For some reason, I wanted to see the 4th floor, so she let me. She also made a point of telling me that if any guests were caught up there, they would be thrown out, so I had to be careful. That's about all I can remember.
This was certainly unlike any of my previous 4th floor dreams as the strangeness appeared to be happening on floor 3 this time (though one of my earlier dreams did have the spookiness happening in the basement). It was also intriguing that the 4th floor in this dream was out of bounds.
POSSIBLE MEANING: The out of bounds 4th floor is easy. I've been playing a game called Last Window on the Nintendo DS which has you playing an ex detective staying at an apartment complex that was once a hotel. In this game, there are mysterious things happening on the 4th floor, too (which in itself spooked me out a little bit; after having all those dreams, I then play a game with a similar plot - WTF!?). Anyway, that part of the dream seems to have been derived from the actual game as some parts of it are similar.
The Ricky Gervais lookalike was noteworthy, too. That dream character seemed to know stuff about me and I felt that he knew me well, much like the being in the Lionheart dream, but not anywhere near as powerful (the guy in this dream was definitely human, whereas the Lionheart being had only assumed a human form). Also, unlike the Lionheart dream, this character didn't seem especially concerned with me as an individual, I felt as though he was just a messenger of sorts but had no interest in me beyond that. He was just doing his "job". The thing with my girlfriend, I felt was definitely important, especially as it comes at a time when I've been having doubts about the future of our relationship.
Another hotel dream. Interestingly, the hotel itself has showed up in some of my previous hotel dreams.
In this dream, I was staying in a room on the 2nd floor, and the 3rd floor was haunted. I had another dream just like this not long ago, but I don't think I remembered to write it down. In the dream, I just avoided the 3rd floor, but I eventually had to go there for something.
When I got there, I went to a particular room. There was a man there who looked a bit like Ricky Gervais, but with stubble. He wore a long black trenchcoat. He was talking to another man in the room about my girlfriend and got annoyed when I interrupted. He told me I was getting into things I didn't understand. The scene then switched to my girlfriend being out in the street somewhere, but I don't remember the details anymore unfortunately.
The dream then went back to the hotel, and I discovered that there was actually a 4th floor, but it was not for guests. It was for staff use only and was used for maintenance purposes. I was with a group of about 3 other people including a short South American woman in her 40s. She seemed to know all about the 4th floor. I think she may have been a cleaner at the hotel or something. For some reason, I wanted to see the 4th floor, so she let me. She also made a point of telling me that if any guests were caught up there, they would be thrown out, so I had to be careful. That's about all I can remember.
This was certainly unlike any of my previous 4th floor dreams as the strangeness appeared to be happening on floor 3 this time (though one of my earlier dreams did have the spookiness happening in the basement). It was also intriguing that the 4th floor in this dream was out of bounds.
POSSIBLE MEANING: The out of bounds 4th floor is easy. I've been playing a game called Last Window on the Nintendo DS which has you playing an ex detective staying at an apartment complex that was once a hotel. In this game, there are mysterious things happening on the 4th floor, too (which in itself spooked me out a little bit; after having all those dreams, I then play a game with a similar plot - WTF!?). Anyway, that part of the dream seems to have been derived from the actual game as some parts of it are similar.
The Ricky Gervais lookalike was noteworthy, too. That dream character seemed to know stuff about me and I felt that he knew me well, much like the being in the Lionheart dream, but not anywhere near as powerful (the guy in this dream was definitely human, whereas the Lionheart being had only assumed a human form). Also, unlike the Lionheart dream, this character didn't seem especially concerned with me as an individual, I felt as though he was just a messenger of sorts but had no interest in me beyond that. He was just doing his "job". The thing with my girlfriend, I felt was definitely important, especially as it comes at a time when I've been having doubts about the future of our relationship.
Sunday, 12 June 2011
Blinded by faith?
In this dream, my girlfriend told me that she'd just had an accident that robbed her of her sight. Her eyes were covered with bandages because she'd just had an operation. She told me that some of her sight would eventually be restored, but that she'd never be able to see fully again and asked me if I still loved her and wanted to be with her.
I said yes.
POSSIBLE INTERPRETATION: My girlfriend has recently become very religious, going as far as to say that she no longer wants to "sin" by having pre-martial sex. We've been together 2 years. Her new church friends have also tried to split us up.
I think this dream refers to change in her beliefs. The blindness, I think represents the way I see her new found beliefs and the effect they have on her (blind faith). Her asking if I still wanted to be with her refers to the misgivings I have about all this, and the fact that it has seriously made me question the future of our relationship. I do love her, but this change has had serious consequences and has, in my opinion made what was very simple very complicated.
Even as I type this, I feel torn about us but sadly, religion destroys everything.
I said yes.
POSSIBLE INTERPRETATION: My girlfriend has recently become very religious, going as far as to say that she no longer wants to "sin" by having pre-martial sex. We've been together 2 years. Her new church friends have also tried to split us up.
I think this dream refers to change in her beliefs. The blindness, I think represents the way I see her new found beliefs and the effect they have on her (blind faith). Her asking if I still wanted to be with her refers to the misgivings I have about all this, and the fact that it has seriously made me question the future of our relationship. I do love her, but this change has had serious consequences and has, in my opinion made what was very simple very complicated.
Even as I type this, I feel torn about us but sadly, religion destroys everything.
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